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*Since I could wear clothes, I was a Tomboy. I would steal my little brothers clothes & get yelled at, be forced to wear dresses and ugly itchy sweaters. School was very difficult for me, I was the girl that everyone joked,and beat up in the hallway. At the age of 9 I was sexually molested by a boy in my class, I was the last one in the room when everyone went to recess, at least I thought, I was too scared to tell anyone so I kept my mouth shut. I decided to distant myself from everyone in school, until I met Christine.She was the new girl in class, we became best of friends. From then on I called her lil buddy( she was short) and she called me big buddy(bc I was buff). Then school became a lot easier. Things couldn't be any better, until one day she told me she was moving to Maryland. I never cried so hard in my entire life, so we said our goodbyes and I kissed her on the cheek. I felt like we shared something more than a friendship, but a relationship. Things went bad again, but this time I was stronger, I started to get into fights, and stood up for myself. Then people were afraid that I was going to beat them up, so they stopped joking me and calling me names. I was finally left alone and school became easier, being the buff girl. I realised at the age of 11 that I was gay. At the age of 12 I tried telling my mom how I felt and she didn't believe me. I ask her if it was ok to look at girls, and she said that it was, she does it all the time, that it was normal to compare yourself to others. So I went on with my life, dating only guys. Relationship after relationship failed, but I stilled wanted to believe my mom. At 16 I dated this guy name Tyler, we dated for 4 years, things got really bad the last year and when I tried leave him, he held a knife to my neck and rapped me. Being silent for a year & watching this show has made me realise my true colors again and now being 20 I can come out & tell the world that I'm GAY, and truly happy!

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