bluemungkey

I know that I have to convince you but this is not the reason why I am writing or to expand my Chart neither to crash the system. I don't care I am me. My nick is Bluemungkey and I don't know for how long should I stay here & keep writing about myself. Just wanna tell someone about myself / life. This might be the only autobiography I'll ever right (since I'm in the mood) to document my training thoughts. And thank god is you are reading.
I was born somewhere in asia, I don't really remember much but I knew I've stayed on 13th floor till my family move to the main land. In school I was reserve & active student. There when I first met BRCD - feminine, pony tailed girl who was my class leader. I've been in the closet till I've met Catwoman. She was the one first gave me a sci-fic book which I've possess my interest in Star Wars since I was a little. I really like her but BRCD back stab and telling her all sorts of stories about me being gay till the moment I've lost her. In 1995 - I've fell in love with JF till my parents found a box of our love letters. I couldn't done that without having her by my side. We ran away till I've stayed at her place by the beach till we resolve our 'prohibited love'. Along the journey I've cried as I that was the last time we are lovers. My family treats me if I'll ever gone back to her - I'll be in house arrest. My father asked to choose - neither family or HER. I choose FAMILY.My integrity is so little till I attempt to commit suicide by turning myself as alcoholic. I've loose my weight & skinning off.
I always know what I want in life. I've proceed my talent in sales. After serial of relationship till one day I've met PB. For the every first time our lips met since knowing each other of months, her lips will be the last lips I wanna kissed. I've been living together & PB had literally taught me the meaning of responsiblites. My past haunt us, but my life fill with her presence & I fill our lives with love. The comfort zone created made me forgotten about my sensitivities & attention. My 100% job commitments led my as my obsession to success. Till I will lost her on my birthday.
Months after the occassion I've kept in silence about my feelings. Till I've had enough & escape from the 'world' of ours till she fallen to a guy. My world collapsed under my nose. I've felt alone & witnessed her changes.
At this moment, while she was lying asleep in her dreamland I can really tell her how much that I still love her as who she is. I don't wanna fight be I'll wish her all the happiness in life that she seek for.

True love will let us grow and wake us up! To PB... I love you. Remember me this way &
For you, thank you for reading.