bluemungkey

I know that I have to convince you but this is not the reason why I am writing or to expand my Chart neither to crash the system. I don't care I am me. My nick is Bluemungkey and I don't know for how long should I stay here & keep writing about myself. Just wanna tell someone about myself / life. This might be the only autobiography I'll ever right (since I'm in the mood) to document my training thoughts. And thank god is you are reading.
I was born somewhere in asia in 1977, I don't really remember much but I knew I've stayed on 13th floor till my family move to the main land. In school I was reserve & active student. There when I first met Julie - feminine, pony tailed girl who was my class leader. I've been in the closet till I've met Ezra. She was the one first gave me a sci-fic book which I've possess my interest in Star Wars since I was a little. I really like her but Julie back stab and telling her all sorts of stories about me being gay till the moment I've lost her. In 1995 - I've fell in love with YY till my parents found a box of our love letters. I couldn't done that without having her by my side. We ran away till I've stayed at her place by the beach till we resolve our 'prohibited love'. Along the journey I've cried as I that was the last time we are lovers. My family treats me if I'll ever gone back to her - I'll be in house arrest. My father asked to choose - neither family or HER. I choose FAMILY.My integrity is so little till I attempt to commit suicide by turning myself as alcoholic. I've lost 7kgs in a week.
I always know what I want to do with my life. I've proceed my talent in sales. In 2001 I got a job in an influential group of companies. After serial of relationship till one day I've met Jay. For the every first time our lips met since knowing each other of months, her lips will be the last lips I wanna kissed. I've been living together yet my parents seems that Jay can teach me the meaning of responsible. My past do haunt our relationship, but my life fill with Jay's presence & I fill our lives with love. The comfort zone she created made me forgotten about my sensitivities & attention. My 100% job commitments led my as my obsession to success. Till on my last birthday I've knew that I will lost the one that I've love most - Jay.
Months after the occassion I've kept in silence about my feelings. Till I've had enough I wish to escape from the 'world' that we've built yet she dare not to tell me that she had fallen to a guy & wish to be straight again. My world collapsed under my nose. I've felt alone & witnessed her changes.
At this moment, while she was lying asleep in her dreamland I can really tell her how much that I still love her as who she is. I don't wanna fight be I'll wish her all the happiness in life that she seek for. True love will let us grow and wake us up! To Jay...Baby, I love you. Remember me this way For you, thank you for reading.